I woke up around 2pm, a call from my mom. She is crying and shouting that my dad pass out. I was shocked but i tried to calm down and ask her to call ambulance. Everything seems so empty to me at that moment. Harta, my housemate looked at me and asked me what happened. Everything so sudden and I don’t believe what I just heard. I waited again for my Mom’s call and get shower directly and pack some clothes to fly back to Indo. I asked Harta to check for ticket and my friend’s from Batam to see if there is any flight for me to catch to fly back to Medan as soon as possible.
20-30 minutes later, I received another call from my Mom telling me if my Dad had passed away. I felt my heart suddenly stop beating, I was hoping if all of these things were only a dream. Everything was not real!! The person I love the most, the person I respect the most, the person I would give my everything to even my life, He is not longer here and I was not there at the last moments of his life. I felt so useless and worthless. BUT WHY?
Why must he left so early? He was physically healthy. He was never sick. I lost my everything today. My life felt so empty, but I need to be strong for my Mom and two little sisters.
God! Please bless my family. Make my Mom stronger and more patience. Make her wiser and be more independent. Lead Her to a better life and open Her eyes. Her heart was too hard for others to go through. I wish She will not have more people who dislike her or hate her. Bless my sisters so that they can be successful. Lead my family to a better life even without my dad in this world!
Sometimes life may be not fair. Maybe we think it is not fair.
But just remember, whatever things that happened to us.
God already plans us the better future.
Whatever bad things happened to us, there will be something for us in the future.
Always believe in God and try your best to leave our life.
God will always be with us.
And I believe even my dad is not here with me anymore.
I am sure he is still watching over me and my family from above.
So I am going to continue to do the best I can to make Him proud of me.
I am still going to be the best daughter He had ever have...
God please take care of my Dad
Dad! please rest in peace.
I am going to take care whatever you left behind and I am ready to responsible for our family.
I won't dissapointed you. But please help me from above! Guide me! and one more thing,
please make Mom to be a person who can accept what others comments and suggestions :)
and Thanks for whatever you gave to me and whatever you did for me. I love u always!
